I don't give a damn." I love that movie. Every time I watch it, I always hope that Rhett comes running back, and they live happily-ever-after. I even used to pretend to be Miss Scarlett O'Hara. She was a vicious, scheming, yet charming Southern Belle, and I wanted to be her soo bad. Ahhh, childhood fantasies.
Well, I was supposed to be at my little place in Kickadonkey tonight. As you have probably guessed, I'm still at home due to some sort of nasal-congestion thing going on. I woke up this morning barely able to swallow. Now my head is all stuffed up, and my glands must be sore since I can't seem to move my neck without radiating pain. LOVELY.
Since I have nothing else better to do, except pack, I thought I would type out another one of these before I go into technology seclusion.
I'm not sure what made me think of the title for tonight. Ok, yes I do, but I don't feel like sharing my "don't give a damn" anger. It's been a pretty stressful year thus far, and I have a feeling it's going to get worse before it gets better. Sorry, I'm being a Debbie Downer. Overall, life is good. I have a job, an apartment, a bf/fiance/lover (who has an interview this week-yay!), and a great family, so really I am blessed. But you know, there are always those little things that you wish you could change so life would be a little bit better. There, I switched to Mary Mediocre. It's the best I can do people!
New Topic: Time to take my pills. I'm already on enough pills that I need one of those weekly pill containers just to keep track of everything. Now with this sickness I've got going on, I have to make sure I spread out all my meds. I end up taking pills every few hours, it's ridiculous. Although, I have to say I don't know what I would do without all my meds. I guess I would be hiding in the corner dizzy, sneezing, and having a panic attack with soaring blood pressure. Hmmm...sounds a bit scary, right?
I keep telling EW that I'm afraid what are children might be like. Poor things, never will have a chance, but they sure will be cute! Especially, if they get his blue eyes. I was a sucker for the blue eyes and the dark hair. I really hope the recessive gene pulls through for me on this. My friends have told me that our kids will be adorable, so it's not just me that thinks so (don't want to sound vain, or anything).
I'm thinking about changing my title. I think it sounds like I don't believe I'm good at blogging, and that's not true. I have been told I'm pretty good at it, and that boosted my confidence a bit. So new name here I come! I might even change it after I get done posting this, so don't be confused :)
Brina*
Friday, August 14, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Goin' To The Chapel...
So I have been debating about writing this blog since I have started it, and after talking with bf/fiance/lover, I guess there's no time like the present. Also, I have a new, shorter name for bf/fiance/lover. It will now be EW, but I might throw in bf/fiance/lover just for kicks every now and then.
Ok...so where do I start? I guess I'll start by saying I've been with EW for over 3 1/2 years now. We met in college and have been together ever since. Now I have known that I wanted to be with EW for probably about 3 years of our relationship. I knew that there would be no one but him. I'm tense, he's laid back. I talk, he listens. I clean, he cooks. I sing, he tells me to stop. So what could possibly be the problem?
Somewhere over the past 1 1/2 years our relationship has become cloudy. Over a year ago, our senior year in college, we decided to get married. Yup, we knew it was something we wanted, but we wanted to wait till we were done with school. Well, we both have graduated, and I now have a job. I also have wedding plans flowing through my mind. Ok...I lied, they are on my computer also. Guest lists, music lists, attendants, etc. We even have a date set: September 4th 2010.
With all of this you would think we are engaged, right?
Well, kinda.
Here's the thing. Apparently people who are engaged need a ring to show. This is something we don't have, and I couldn't care less. I say screw society's rules. I'm not marrying society, I'm marrying EW, and I don't know why people can't say "congrats" and leave it at that. Maybe it's just my upbringing. My family doesn't follow many cultural norms and we never have. My mom and dad were never officially engaged. My dad asked my mom if she wanted to look at wedding rings and they went to the store. No engagement ring, no fuss, and a few months later they were married.
I totally understand why some girls want the guy on one knee, the big diamond, and fancy wedding. I thought I did too, until we really started talking about getting married, then all that stuff made me sick to my stomach. I don't want that...really. If I had my way, we would be married yesterday. Oh yeah, I've thought about it. Just me and him, with two friends at the courthouse. I wouldn't have to deal with all this other stuff I'm supposed to do. But then what do I tell our family and friends?
So where does this put us? Honestly, I really don't know. I guess we'll be the dating/engaged/lovers for a little bit longer. Really though, EW isn't my boyfriend, and he hasn't been for a really long time. He's not my fiance or my lover...
Brina*
Ok...so where do I start? I guess I'll start by saying I've been with EW for over 3 1/2 years now. We met in college and have been together ever since. Now I have known that I wanted to be with EW for probably about 3 years of our relationship. I knew that there would be no one but him. I'm tense, he's laid back. I talk, he listens. I clean, he cooks. I sing, he tells me to stop. So what could possibly be the problem?
Somewhere over the past 1 1/2 years our relationship has become cloudy. Over a year ago, our senior year in college, we decided to get married. Yup, we knew it was something we wanted, but we wanted to wait till we were done with school. Well, we both have graduated, and I now have a job. I also have wedding plans flowing through my mind. Ok...I lied, they are on my computer also. Guest lists, music lists, attendants, etc. We even have a date set: September 4th 2010.
With all of this you would think we are engaged, right?
Well, kinda.
Here's the thing. Apparently people who are engaged need a ring to show. This is something we don't have, and I couldn't care less. I say screw society's rules. I'm not marrying society, I'm marrying EW, and I don't know why people can't say "congrats" and leave it at that. Maybe it's just my upbringing. My family doesn't follow many cultural norms and we never have. My mom and dad were never officially engaged. My dad asked my mom if she wanted to look at wedding rings and they went to the store. No engagement ring, no fuss, and a few months later they were married.
I totally understand why some girls want the guy on one knee, the big diamond, and fancy wedding. I thought I did too, until we really started talking about getting married, then all that stuff made me sick to my stomach. I don't want that...really. If I had my way, we would be married yesterday. Oh yeah, I've thought about it. Just me and him, with two friends at the courthouse. I wouldn't have to deal with all this other stuff I'm supposed to do. But then what do I tell our family and friends?
So where does this put us? Honestly, I really don't know. I guess we'll be the dating/engaged/lovers for a little bit longer. Really though, EW isn't my boyfriend, and he hasn't been for a really long time. He's not my fiance or my lover...
He's really just mine, and he always will be.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Back to Civilization
I'm back from my stay at Kickadonkey. Bf/fiance/lover came to Kickadonkey last Wednesday. He and I stayed there until we came back to the Homestead (my family's house) on Friday afternoon. We had a great weekend with my family. Bf/fiance/lover--I need to find a shorter name for him--brought me the 2nd and 3rd season of Reba to help me pass the time in Kickadonkey. So we brought them back with us to the Homestead, and watched both seasons with the parental units + brother.
In other news, I'm writing this from my OWN computer! Yes, I finally got it back on Friday, minus one nasty virus. Apparently the virus that was on it entered as a 'Microsoft Update' and it tricked the virus protection, so I would have gotten it no matter what. Lovely.
Starting tonight through Thursday night I will be helping with Vacation Bible School. I helped last year and I really loved it, and I wanted to help this year also, but I think I might have taken on too much. I am going to be the only teacher. The kids will be switching out and I will teach the lesson 4 times for different age levels. I'm sure all will be good, and everything will work out, but as of right now I think I'm in a little over my head. Thankfully, it's only 5 days. Although, I don't have those days planned out too well, so I think I'm just going to 'wing it.' HA! It could become very interesting.
Come Friday, I'll be heading back to Kickadonkey, and starting my first-ever Teacher's Institute on Monday and Tuesday. Then my first-ever First Day of School on Wed. AHH!
I haven't put up any pictures yet, but I knew which one I wanted to put up first. This is a picture of the 'cat stand' my dad made our cat, Binky. You can buy them at pet stores for a lot of money, but my dad is AMAZING at thinking of creative ways to solve problems. For example:
Problem: Cat was jumping up on every tall piece of furniture--She likes being up high
Solution: Make a cat stand using spools from my mom's work
As you can see, he tiered them so it's like a staircase, and we had some extra carpet, so we put that around the bottom. I'm using 'we' because I helped :) The whole thing was put together in just 1 afternoon. Binky loves it!
In other news, I'm writing this from my OWN computer! Yes, I finally got it back on Friday, minus one nasty virus. Apparently the virus that was on it entered as a 'Microsoft Update' and it tricked the virus protection, so I would have gotten it no matter what. Lovely.
Starting tonight through Thursday night I will be helping with Vacation Bible School. I helped last year and I really loved it, and I wanted to help this year also, but I think I might have taken on too much. I am going to be the only teacher. The kids will be switching out and I will teach the lesson 4 times for different age levels. I'm sure all will be good, and everything will work out, but as of right now I think I'm in a little over my head. Thankfully, it's only 5 days. Although, I don't have those days planned out too well, so I think I'm just going to 'wing it.' HA! It could become very interesting.
Come Friday, I'll be heading back to Kickadonkey, and starting my first-ever Teacher's Institute on Monday and Tuesday. Then my first-ever First Day of School on Wed. AHH!
I haven't put up any pictures yet, but I knew which one I wanted to put up first. This is a picture of the 'cat stand' my dad made our cat, Binky. You can buy them at pet stores for a lot of money, but my dad is AMAZING at thinking of creative ways to solve problems. For example:
Problem: Cat was jumping up on every tall piece of furniture--She likes being up high
Solution: Make a cat stand using spools from my mom's work
As you can see, he tiered them so it's like a staircase, and we had some extra carpet, so we put that around the bottom. I'm using 'we' because I helped :) The whole thing was put together in just 1 afternoon. Binky loves it!
I'll post again before I leave for Kickadonkey!
Brina*
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