What's Next?

I know I told you that I would finish that post that was cut off, but.....I totally just lost all interest, and it was long and boring anyway. You wouldn't have liked it, really. So instead I will write about this weekend in which I did nothing. Ok well, I guess that is a lie. Yesterday I went to a wedding shower. It was very nice. The couple will be getting married 2 weeks before EW and I. So we have many events to go to this summer that don't even include our events, which makes it a very busy summer.
It has been about 3 weeks since I've been out of school and at home. I've learned to live in a tiny space that was once my small bedroom, but now has become almost a closet with all the stuff that I have in it because I'll be moving it all up north in about a month. Honestly, I'm not sure our apartment will be big enough for all my stuff. How did I ever collect so much? I hate moving. I pray that we will be able to stay in this apartment for at least two years, unless next year we are in the position to buy a house. HA! Fat chance of that, but hey, we can always imagine. If we do need to live in an apartment for a few more years we will have to make due, but I better not have to pack all this stuff up again and move. Nope. Not happening. We'll hire movers, because I'm not doing it.
This summer seems to be moving so slowly. I wish it would just hurry up a bit. And that's not even because I want the wedding to get here sooner. I don't. I just want to be doing something, anything. I really wish I could figure out what I am supposed to be doing...as in a career. If I could just figure that out, I would be set. I know I don't have any formal education in anything but teaching, but there has to be something out there that I can do without a degree in it. I like learning, if I'm interested in it, I'll learn all about it. My mom worries that I got a degree in education, so why not use it? I wish I could answer that. I like teaching, but I have the 'what ifs'. What if there is something I like better? What if I'm missing out on the job of my life? What if I get a teaching job and I hate it. This is what really scares me. I know if I hate something, I'll quit. That's it, I'm walking out. I've done it before. I don't feel like I am ready to make a commitment for a year without really thinking hard about it. Everyone knows in this economy, you can't afford to do that. You have to seize the opportunity and run with it. I could totally stress myself out with all these questions and worry about finding the right job, or I can sit back and relax. Something will happen, and my time will come. I have faith that it will. I will actively look for something to do in the meantime, but I'm going to wait for the big next thing. I know that it will be worth waiting for.

Brina*